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IMPLODEMy head is about to explode,   
my heart is going to IMPLODE,  
 
my feelings for you never will i say,  
 
you mean the world to me,  
 
so far away,  
 
we are two hearts apart,  
 
two wrists in chains,  
 
taking a chance to kill this distance,  
 
surely you'd end in tears again,  
 
i know i cannot love you, i know you  
 
do not feel the same, but maybe if i write  
this,  
 
then maybe it will explain just how lovely you  
are,   
in every shape and form, you are my eternity  
 
rising to the top IMPLODE
by ~mercaful9
Not Yet Our Eternalforever is never enough in this life,  
forever tied my wrists entwined,  
when i think of how you were mine,  
it pains me to feel these feelings,  
 
it reminds me of a past i once knew  
so well, eternally i want a love that is  
my own, i want it with no one but you,  but we are traveling a painful path,  
 
one that swerves and turns and twists  its heaven, to hell we are doomed for the  
past is so far ahead, but tonight i just would  
rather cry in your arms instead,   
i remember that day, that day so well,when hell  
didn't matter, no not at all, but now Not Yet Our Eternal
by ~mercaful9
it makes no sensei hate this feeling, the one that just keeps me thinking,  
the feeling,preventing me from sleeping, the one of the  
one that walked away,  
 
i hate this place, this dark dark,rainy place, the kind where  it leads to an even darker step, from one rainy cloud to  
the next,  
 
i want to hate you so bad, i want you to hurt the way i did,  
i want to regret, to reject, the one that walked away, keep  
me from sinning, keep me from over thinking, keep me  
from writing, this letter i'm forgetting,  
 
i wish i could forget you, i wish i could get over you,  
the one...who wa it makes no sense
by ~mercaful9
no time for ILL SEE YOU SOONyou're hiding behind your eyes,  so clever enough to almost not  
recognize, i miss your smile, your  
laugh, your stare, you aren't there,  as I'm not here, you wanted my heart,  well you have it now,you wanted my  
cries,you had them at goodbye,  
two syllables left unsaid, two words left  
to wander at dusk, a lonely child  
without a friend, i miss you now, why  
did you leave, somewhere so far,  
somewhere you DON'T belong, somewhere,  not here, no time for ILL SEE YOU SOON
by ~mercaful9
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im done with the circle game im just done

Wed Nov 25, 2009, 6:47 PM
Note:the only reason ill be writing this in all caps isnt because im upset but namely just so i can see it for myself...

I'M DONE WITH THE BULLSHIT.IM DONE WITH EVERYTHING.I CAN'T STAND THAT I CRY AT NIGHT AND LIVE IN CONSTANT GUILT BECAUSE I'M IN THIS HOUSE.I'M UNHAPPY WITH A LOT OF THINGS BUT NOT AS MUCH AS I AM STANDING CONFUSED AS TO WHAT THIS MEANS FOR ME AND KATE.

THE SHORT VERSION IS I WENT TO HER HOUSE LIKE 2 DAYS AGO AND I GOT THE ANSWER I SHOULD HAVE EXPECTED.RIGHT NOW SHES GOING THROUGH A ROUGH PATCH AND I'M HELPLESS.I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID THIS TIME AROUND.WE DON'T EVEN TALK.WE HAVEN'T HAD AN HONEST CONVERSATION SINCE OCTOBER 7TH?????BUT HEY ITS OKAY IT IS.I JUST I'M NOT IN THE RIGHT SPOT MYSELF...NECESSARILY

I WENT TO GO VISIT MY MOM FOR LIKE A WEEK AND I SWEAR SHES A FREAKIN BRAT!!!!!!!ALL SHE DOES IS NAG AT ME AND REMIND ME OF WHAT A FUCKING FAILURE I AM!!!!!!!HMPH...YEAH THATS ANOTHER THING I'M A FAILURE.NO SURPRISE I REALIZE THAT.I DON'T GET THE POINT OF WRITING MUCH ANYMORE.NAMELY CUZ IM BLANK TO A HIGH DEGREE.I CAN'T COME UP WITH ANYTHING LATELY??????


*SIGH*

IF U READ THIS KUDOS TO YOU.I KNOW ITS POINTLESS CUZ A BUNCH IS JUST ME BEING SELFISH.

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  • Mood: Longing
  • Listening to: the voices that remain
  • Reading: E-mails
  • Watching: some show on disney
  • Playing: with these thoughts in my head
  • Eating: none
  • Drinking: none

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  • Interests: reading really gorry books and listening to my radio
  • Favourite movie: its between my 2 new obsessions...Carrie 1 and Carrie 2
  • Favourite band or musician: The Rascal Flatts!
  • Favourite genre of music: rock,country,screamo,screamo/techno
  • Favourite artist: there are too many to count
  • Favourite poet or writer: Nicholas Sparks
  • Favourite photographer: myself currently=)
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  • Operating System: the computer ?
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  • Shell of choice: glow in the sun abalonie
  • Wallpaper of choice: anything rascal flatts or red...or BOTH
  • Skin of choice: my own
  • Favourite game: how many mustanges are on the road currently that i can see in my view
  • Favourite gaming platform: what kind of question is that exactly??!
  • Favourite cartoon character: Dorie from Finding Nemo!!!Shes the BEST!
  • Personal Quote: your unhealthy coping mechanism is a temporary fix for a perminent disease
  • Tools of the Trade: pencil,pen,paper,and my brain

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:iconsedna713:
~sedna713 Oct 26, 2009, 3:40:07 PM
hi it's Gaby :wave:

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~mercaful9 Nov 8, 2009, 1:13:43 AM
hi gaby how are you!!!!!

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"Call me a sinner, call me a saint, tell me it's over, i'll still love you the same"~Shinedown~

if only you would hear me, if only you would believe me~my quote~
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~Tay--Tay Sep 13, 2009, 5:02:33 PM
Thanks for all the faves!

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:#1:thats is my way of power:winner:
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~mercaful9 Sep 25, 2009, 8:19:42 PM
UR WELCOME SIS :)

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"Call me a sinner, call me a saint, tell me it's over, i'll still love you the same"~Shinedown~

if only you would hear me, if only you would believe me~my quote~
:iconcyanide-order:
~cyanide-order Sep 11, 2009, 10:01:01 PM
Mercy!

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"People die,
But real love is forever." -(Even In Death)
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~mercaful9 Sep 11, 2009, 10:07:56 PM
im having writers block!

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"Call me a sinner, call me a saint, tell me it's over, i'll still love you the same"~Shinedown~

if only you would hear me, if only you would believe me~my quote~
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~Outnamed666 Sep 7, 2009, 9:50:38 AM
thanks for the fave

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I shall nom you to death...NOM NOM NOM!
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~mercaful9 Sep 7, 2009, 11:19:26 AM
ur welcome

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"Call me a sinner, call me a saint, tell me it's over, i'll still love you the same"~Shinedown~

if only you would hear me, if only you would believe me~my quote~
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~LizHeartcore Aug 21, 2009, 9:30:06 AM
thank you :hug:

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